I Was Going To Try And Sell Stuff To Make Some Extra Money
But it turns out I have nothing of value to sell.
I was willing to part with my TV, but I couldn’t get nearly enough for it to warrant selling it. I have two, but this one is the one I bought myself when I was 20 and it has sentimental value, as dumb as it sounds lol so I refuse to sell it for a measly $200-300.
I’m selling a futon for $60. And a dresser for $80. If I can find buyers for them.
I would sell plasma, but it’s only $45 a week and that’s not worth the drive, the time, and the pain. So, pass on that.
I could set up a fall at a WalMart and milk that into a lawsuit. I don’t want to get in trouble though. And I doubt I could fall convincingly without ACTUALLY hurting myself. I’d be too embarrassed too.
I don’t have anyone that I could blackmail.
I’m not in any shape to do porn.
I don’t know any older rich people that I could exploit using my sexuality.
Been playing phone tag with this woman about a job interview since yesterday. Ugh. And since my voicemail skills suck I sound like a complete creeper every time I leave her a message so she’s probably wondering why she even called me in the first place and has decided not to interview me after hearing me sound like some socially inept robot on her answering machine.
Today was my second Video Production class at GCC. I’m still a little “ehh” about the campus and the class itself, but it’s not horrible. I’m going to make it sound horrible though because… I just have a flair for the dramatic. First off, I want to say that I could probably learn all of this stuff myself if I just had equipment to mess with. Or a one-on-one mentor. Most of the stuff we’ve gone over, I KNOW, I just haven’t put into practice yet. That’s not to say I could go out and shoot a masterpiece right now, but if I had the money to have all this sick equipment (which isn’t even that sick here, it feels kind of like a brokedown version of a real class) then I’d learn more with some video tutorials, my Filmmaker’s Handbook, the instruction manuals, and some experimentation.
One thing I really hate about the class is that for our lab we have to work in groups. I HATE GROUP WORK WITH EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING! I don’t like group work because there is always that person who is this insatiable work-a-holic and does everything, his sidekick, and then the filler people who can’t really get a word in edgewise. Also, I want to work on this stuff ALONE because it would be more comfortable that way for me than having to figure things out with my whole group peering over my shoulder. I don’t know what it is; I work really hard when I’m by myself, but I don’t really like putting myself out there in groups because EVERY GROUP I’ve ever been in for school has had that person who knows everything and shuts every other idea down. I just find it constricting and hard to do my own thing with group work.
My group is cool though. I really don’t have any issues with them. One guy is this kid I graduated high-school with. We weren’t really tight then and I don’t necessarily see that changing but we get annoyed by the same people and the teacher’s LONG monologues so that’s obviously an instant bond. There’s this ginger who’s really cool. I’ll call him Ron Weasley because… well, he’s a ginger. And he mentioned Harry Potter when we were walking back out to our cars after class. I know, I’m clever. And last is Castro. He’s this Cuban guy with kind of a heavy accent and acts a little bit like the dictator of our group. For the most part, he’s cool but… he was trying to do EVERYTHING and I’m like, dude… we all need to learn this stuff, not just you. Also, he tried to put me on blast for not fixing the lighting for a close-up shot (even though this lab was NOT about the lighting, it was about working the camera).
I also got put on blast by the lab director for trying to coil an extension cord the wrong way. Even though the way I did it wasn’t bad—he said the point was so that when you unrolled the cord, it would come out straight, and mine did *shrug* Granted, the way he showed me WAS better and more effective but I didn’t need the blast accompanying it.
Okay. Now on to the various people in this class who annoy me.
There’s an older woman. I’ll call her Owl because she looks like one. Her eyes are always super wide and stuck on stupid like she can’t quite grasp what’s going on. Or her forehead is crinkled in this ugly frowning way for no reason while the teacher is talking. She’s always complaining and asking DUMB ASS QUESTIONS! Today she asked if we should bring hand sanitizer to the lab. Um… if you want to! Like, WTF are you even talking about? That’s like me asking if I should wear a red shirt to class. WHO CARES?! Do it if you want, don’t if you don’t want. And I know that seems trivial, but she asks stuff like that ALL THE TIME. And it wastes time. She also went into diva mode when we had to get into our groups today because she wanted to be with these three other guys who she has all of her classes with. It was this big hooplah because she just HAD to be with them because they have their cool little video production program clique and I was rolling my eyes. Just get in the group you’re assigned.
The next person who gets on my nerves I’m calling Humpty Dumpty because that’s EXACTLY how he was looking when he was perched on his stool today. Perfectly round, pale, and with that sour, unamused look that one kid in the class always has while he makes smartass remarks that he thinks are witty while the teacher is talking. If you don’t want to be here, then leave. Like today the teacher said something like, this little “thingamabob” (it wasn’t thingamabob but we’ll go with that), and Humpty Dumpty scoffs and goes, “Thingamabob?” Yes, thingamabob! Shut the hell up. You’re not witty, clever, or funny. And he’s one of those people who asks a question and then seems to get some kind of twisted delight when the teacher kind of stumbles to answer it. He asked something and our teacher was trying to explain it, but not in the clearest way, and he had this dumb smirk on his face and a smug look that I wanted to slap. And when the teacher asked if he understood he just shrugged and made it clear with his body language that he didn’t, and said, “Yeah, I guess… just go on.” All dismissive. I can’t with people like him. If you don’t understand, say it. Or if you want to ask him in private just nod like you do understand and ask him later, don’t be a prick.
Lastly, this whole group gets on my nerves. This guy who looks like Michael Phelps, just not in swimming shape. A girl who is always smiling and just way too bubbly for my liking (she doesn’t annoy me AS much, but I’ll get to her), and her little drooling puppy dog admirer. Michael Phelps… actually hasn’t done anything to get on my nerves, so scratch that. I think I just added him because he’s in their group, but I’m too lazy to go back now. Smiley *sigh* she’s nice, she is. But she asks SO MANY QUESTIONS. Today she came up to me and the guy I went to high-school with and started making small talk, which is fine.
Then her attention was all on me and the questions were like missiles, one after the other: “So why are you taking this course?” “You’re not in the production program so, why are you taking it?” “For fun?” “What do you need it for?” “Are those gages in your ears or just studs?” “Oh, studs? Okay, good, because if they were gages I was gonna be so mad at you! (????)” And on and on. I don’t know. People who are too in-your-face make me want to step BACK. So she’s only minorly (I know that’s not a word but it should be) annoying. Her puppy dog just makes dumb comments all the time and tries to be funny. Plus he’s like obsessed with her and made sure he was in her group for the lab exercises. Like, raised his hand and let it be known that he MUST WORK WITH SMILEY.
Sorry if this sounds like I’m about to go on a killing spree, but I’m really very calm lol I just like to dissect people who irritate me and get to the bottom of why so that I can try and get past it.
(Fair warning: this post is all over the place. It was written in a steam of consciousness fashion and I cannot be held responsible for any typos you may see because it’s late, I’ve been traveling, and I’m too lazy to proofread).
I’ve decided that there are certain things that need to be done A.S.A.P., job or not. I’m broke right now—like, seriously, DEAD broke—so any spare cash I get HAS to go towards these things so I can get them out of the way and have a little relief. In order of importance:
-Pay off my credit card. I’m not about to file bankruptcy or anything, but I’d like to just pay the thing off in full and be done with it (it’s really not that high; if I had a legit job then I could probably pay it off within two to three paychecks). After that I’m strictly using it for gas so that I can keep things simple.
-Hook up internet at my house. I’ve mentioned before that I have a job prospect that could be commission based and work from home, but I need the internet. I’d rather not do it from my parents’ house because, like I’ve also said, that defeats the purpose of me even moving. My friend does really well and makes good money at this job, but he’s been doing it a while (it’s like telecommunications/marketing). However, I think if I could hook up my internet I could at least pay the bill monthly with whatever I make on this, WHILE I apply at other jobs. Ideally I’d like to make at least enough to offer some form of rent payment and cover my internet/cell-phone costs.
-I need to buy The Shield: The Complete Series. Or you could click that link and buy it for me. Obviously this is lowest on my list of priorities, but after watching season 3 on my huge ass TV I can’t go back to watching MegaVideo links. Plus, then I can just be the sloth I am at heart and never leave my couch until season 7 comes to a close on my DVD player.
Filed under miscellaneous priorities, we have:
-Dieting/losing weight. Really, I need to get it together. This weekend at my aunt’s lake house, I was looking so fucking frumpy. Since I’m broke, all I have in my house are fruits and vegetables (my diabolical way of ensuring that I don’t eat anything bad). My mom is also going to do this diet with me, so between that and working out with my brother, I should be within a range of where I want to be by the end of September. I’ve never been more serious about this than now (and I’ve whined about needing to slim down a bit before too but seriously… my cousin told me I had “squishy boobs” this weekend and, granted he’s a snot-nosed little twelve-year-old brat whose opinion is about as important to me as planking, that still can’t fly).
-Writing. Something else I’ve been very lazy on as of late. I have a semi-valid excuse though. Between moving, starting class, and then going on vacation I’ve had a lot to get used to and wrap my head around annnnnddddd… so I just wasn’t writing lol but that’s going to change. I want to start back on my web series. I have to finish Need. I have to finish my zombie spec and my comedy—both of them are SO close to being done; I just have to stop being a lazy ass and do them. A trip to the library on Wednesday is in order.
-Trimming the fat of my social life. I tweeted about deactivating my Facebook. The people there are just really getting on my nerves lately—everyone has kids that they won’t shut up about, or their heart is broken, or they’re mad at life. I just scroll through and wonder why I even bother wasting my time reading about people’s lives who I don’t care about at all. I doubt I’ll actually delete it; I’m just going to limit myself to logging in once a day for 15 minutes; enough time to check on people I like and cyber-stalk people I get amusement out of laughing at and then get off. I’ve deleted idiots from my phone… I just don’t need the bullshit distractions from people who are holding me back anymore.
Random things I want soon-ish:
-A Macbook Pro -A good camera to shoot my web series with -A Kindle
Sidenote, I put a hold on my Netflix account today :(
I’ve gone tumblr AWOL and I hate it. When I do actually manage to get on here now I simply feverishly reblog things or post videos. So quick update:
I’m still settling in at my new place. I love it there. I just need to find a way to get my internet hooked up. Going to the library gets old, and having to come back to my parents’ house to use the internet kind of defeats the purpose of moving out when you use the internet as much as I do. I also need money to buy the rest of The Shield on DVD because I have a massive TV now and watching it online just isn’t going to cut it anymore lol
I haven’t written since I’ve moved. I’ve been on the move, trying to get settled, starting class, getting ready to go out of town, etc. so I haven’t really had time to sit down and write anything substantial. I’ve been thinking about it a lot though, if that counts for anything lol.
I started my class yesterday. My teacher talks SO. MUCH. And he goes off on all these tangents about stuff that I don’t care about. Like he talks about random technology updates, what websites own each other, the advancement of cyber shit and I’m just like…. can we stick to production please? Generally, I think the class is going to be cool. Nobody really gets on my nerves as of yet. As of yet being the key words in that sentence.
I’m going to Washington tomorrow. I’m not excited, but I’m not dreading it either. It just… is lol it’ll be good to get out of AZ though. We’ve had excessive heat warning all week (bleh) and I just need a break from all the things bothering me here (job hunting, being broke, writing) so I can regroup and come back refreshed.
Also, my car passed emissions today! I was sure it was going to fail, the inspector was going to treat me like a negligent parent (like they ALWAYS do when your car fails), and I’d have to spend money that I don’t have to get the repairs done so that it would be up to par. I think this is definitely a miracle from God that my car passed because… my baby is struggling.
I’m starving and my computer is having a hard time keeping up with my typing right now, which pisses me off, so I’m out. Except to hear from me again… sometime?
That my brother and I are going to visit my aunt and younger cousin in Washington next weekend. I hope I get to jet ski at their lake house!
We all know how trips away from Phoenix strengthen my inspiration and motivation so hopefully between this and starting my production class, I’ll come back ready to kick some screenwriting ass again. Because lately I’ve just been kind of kicking it in the shins and running away real quick.
I’m avoiding going home because home means no internet. Home means practically being cut off from the outside world!
Just realized I start my production class the day after tomorrow. Kinda nervous. But more excited.
I have to go through emissions tomorrow. My car’s going to fail. And then I’m going to have to pay for repairs. And I’m going to be annoyed.
I want to lay down. But I have no bed here anymore. And I don’t want to go back to my house because I’ll just end up back here for dinner anyway since I have no food at my house either. I HAVE NOTHING!
I’d take a picture of how depressing my old room looks (I’m sitting at a card table typing this) but my camera’s at the other place. I’d take a picture of my amazing new room over there but then I wouldn’t be able to post it anyway since I don’t have internet there. No winning.
I think I listened to Jill Scott’s entire discography this morning when I unpacked. I love that woman. Has she ever made a bad song?!
Lol. I’m finally all settled in at the new place. Right now, I’m at my parents’ house because I need to use the internet. Plus I need some company! I have no television, no internet, just music and DVDs. The internet thing should change sometime next week. I don’t care as much about TV because I can just watch it online anyway haha
I love the house! I just have to get used to it. And I think half the reason it’s a struggle is because I have nothing to do there really. It’s cool thought; it’ll just force me to focus more on my writing. I do need it to looks for jobs/apply/etc. though. And I don’t want to have to leave the house every time I need to look something up real quick.
My new room is amazing. So big! I don’t really have anything else to say right now but just know that I’m not dead… my access to the wonderful world of tumblr is just limited temporarily.
-Moved the refrigerator in. It was nowhere near as heavy as I thought it was going to be, so that went smoothly.
-Saw Fright Night. For free. It was okay.
-Ate pizza. Not bad, not great. But, like sex, even when it’s bad, pizza’s still pretty fucking good. Amiright?
-About to sit back, watch the new episode of Damages, read some more of The Stand and finish up season 3 of The Shield.
Tomorrow I have to move my room. And take apart my bed *sigh* I want a normal bed again. I’m excited to move though! And I have an interview next week, and another work-from-home opportunity that I’m considering too. So things are looking up.